All in the Name

Crushed again,

Burst again,

Something has changed,

Something isn’t same.

No, its not sour,

It isn’t pain,

I do not feel

Anything,

I feel all the same.

I see myself

Alone

On the check board,

Was I playing by my rules,

In someone else’s game?

Where is that smile

That lit my eyes?

Where is that tear,

That fell

Untamed?

Where is the anger,

That made me

Stammer?

Where is the zitter,

That I felt

In your name?

Where is the sense

Of belonging,

When I heard my name?

Not surreal,

just indifference..

Scattered in pieces,

with no acceptance..

All those days,

appear like dreams..

Far far off

Lost in the maze,

Of my mind

In my own game.

Why did I believe

That we would live,

To see the day

Come true,

for me and you..

But I still dream

with No night

of exception,

of u, of us

of our own terraine..

Every morning,

I call you names..

and I curse myself,

For being so lame.

Only if,

I could feel

The fall..

that I had

I would have told

How hurt I was..

But I,

am still floating

over the cross lane

Or, have I already

hit the rock bottom

and have lost all touch

Of reality,

Of being humane..

I do not blame,

you or me..

As confused,

I remain,

with nothing

ascertain...

but certainly I have lost

the game..

of love..

all in the name...

of love..

Yes, all in your name,

Trying to find

my identity..
My true name!!!